March 30th, 2010

i don't want to be friends

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Love. I am going to choose love. Not romantic love, that can only choose you, but I'm done with letting little shit bother me. I'm done with drama. I'll love you if you're dramatic, but that doesn't mean I have to be involved in whatever it is you're upset about. I won't let other people's hate become my hate. I won't let hate become my main emotion. I won't let the fear of rejection be my fuel. I'm tired of standing on this precipice. I'm just going to jump.

All this talk of weddings and babies is really throwing me off. It's not 1946. We don't need to be settled for the rest of our lives. In fact that's what our grandparents and parents exactly don't want for us. And I feel as if I am stunted in that department but alas: here's the truth: just because it doesn't make me happy doesn't mean it doesn't make other people happy. I am not stunted. I'm just different. Different isn't bad.

I will love despite other people's choices. You are what you love not what loves you. That's what I decided a long time ago.