I just had the most responsible thought ever. I don't want to be the family fuck-up. I don't want to be the tale my sister tells her kids "Don't end up like Aunt Nellie, the single mom of two crackhead babies who's still in rehab". I mean I doubt this will happen, but I doubt many people seek to become this, but it could happen to anybody. A few stupid mistakes and this can happen. I see it everyday. Normal people who get addicted to something and then their life goes downhill from there. I just have to be responsible. I can still have fun, but I have to be conscience of my decisions and be careful. I can't be stupid anymore.