Nellie (neongreenleaf) wrote,

June 2010: And You Were Special
1. Ghouls - We Are Scientists
2. Chocolate Raspberry Lemon and Lime - Muscles
3. The Hardest Button to Button - White Stripes
4. Nobody Move, Nobody Get Hurt - We Are Scientists
5. Live Alone - Franz Ferdinand
6. Sweaty - Muscles

Lately I've been feeling like such a grown up and, ironically, this feeling usually occurs when I'm high. But I think it's because when I'm sober I can't help but think what a failure I am usually. Being high makes me realize I'm not measured by the things I haven't accomplished but by the things I have. Things like driving, having a credit card, and a job aren't a big deal to most people but a lot of my friends and people I know don't have/do any of those things. And while I'm not ready to move out on my own any time soon, I know that I will one day. I have a semblance of a financial plan to do so. I have a financial plan. Not many people do. Not for nothing I've also realized that many adults aren't even "really" adults. Plenty are just as confused as fucked up as I am. Many adults don't know what they want to do with their lives. Many adults do stupid shit like drink too much and smoke weed. Not everyone becomes a fuck up when they're a teen. It can happen at any time. I haven't fucked up my life yet, and I don't plan on doing so. I believe that counts for something.
Tags: monthly moosix, random thoughts
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